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Ah, hello. You've reached Sophie, but I must be in the midst of something. If you have a question about self-defense or Teachers' Council, leave a message letting me know what precisely you're interested in and I'll get back to you.

...everyone else, do as you do, I suppose.

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I mean I looked at the Devil's power, saw where it went, and then...became it, I suppose. It's power, but essentials are living manifestations of it, so I made myself a partial manifestation of that power.

What are the downsides to that?

...you saw the Devil, Draco. All that fear and hate and utter meaninglessness. That's what I put in me.

I know I saw him but I just...it's a hard concept to grasp, okay? You understand.

It's strange, because he's always been real to me, and most people here think that's laughable or a lie. But there are plenty of other things I find hard to conceptualize.

...and really, you didn't see him him. He gets worse than Baltasar. You really did see the wrong nightmare.

[and it's pretty messed up that you can be so glib about that, sophie]

Anyway, gold power is...miraculous. But dead. Which is why that was a mistake too.

I don't think it's laughable or a lie, but it's just a hard concept to grasp. It shouldn't be hard since there are dark wizards in my world, but at the same time it's hard to put them on the same level in my head.

...so maybe we can find a way for me to see the right one.

Because they're not. A wizard is a human, or at least a mortal thing. The Devil was never a human. The body you saw is the corpse of my father's twin.

[and nope, she doesn't really appreciate how many points of horror that adds to the buffet]

I know. But I just...it's the same concept. Evil things doing evil things. [He's just giving her a level stare though. Well?]

A similar concept. People have free will, though. They can change. The Devil is what he is, there's literally nothing else he can be, no possibility of change. That's why they're called essentials.

I suppose that makes sense. And there isn't anyone else that can change him? Anyone he fears?

Change, no. Fear? Well. He ran from me in the end.

[she says it with a bitter sort of pride]

...heh. So you're the Dumbledore of your world.

[she laughs]

Hardly. I am the opposite of a hero, Draco. Or a savior. I'm not selfless or a champion of the greater good. I haven't saved anyone, probably not even myself. I'm just Sophie.

...before he died, Dumbledore was telling me a story about a boy who made all of the wrong choices. Sometimes now I wonder if he meant himself. [And judging by his expression, Dumbles is a hard subject, too.]

I'm not sure there's anyone who isn't that boy sometimes. Or a lot of the time. All anyone can do is what they can do. Even if that doesn't seem like enough.

[she sighs into his hair]

You'll have to tell me about him someday, if you think I'm like him somehow. Not today, though.

Another subtle hint? [He doesn't mind though.]

...no, not today. It's going to take a very long time, I think, to talk about Dumbledore. I think the only ones I can really talk about from home without fail are my mother, my dormmates, and Pansy.

Yes and no. I also meant me.

That's all right, though. You know that, right?

Of course you did. Because you and I are the same, in a bizarre sort of way.

...no, not really. Talking about my mother means talking about the war, talking about my dormmates can only be so entertaining, and talking about Pansy pisses Jade off.

It really is a little bizarre.

[she obviously doesn't mind, since she's still talking to his hair]

You have memories of your mother before the war, you know. And if she wants to know about you, then your dormmates are part of that. And Pansy, well...pick your battles, Draco.

Good thing you're used to bizarre.

I know...and I know. [But he snorts suddenly.] What the hell is the big deal about Pansy though? Shouldn't that fall into the same category as my other friends?

Not when you phrase it as 'my girlfriend, Pansy', no. You're worried she'll be jealous of me, of course she's going to be jealous of a girl who's known you all your life and bossed you around and kissed you if she felt like it.

Ex. [He's just going to emphasize that point to see if it changes Sophie's answer.]

Was Rapunzel your girlfriend at all?

No. Rapunzel was just a girl I thought I loved. Why?

And how worried about that was Jade?

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